Ok so here its goes..
OPERATION STAY OR LET GO?
1. Masaya ako kasi ok na kami
2. May kausap na ako at may inspiration at may motivation kasi anjan sya
3. Di na aq mggising sa madaling araw dhil di ako makatulog
4. May taong nagmmahal skin at mahal ko
1. May posibilidad na mangyari ulit yung pang babae nya once na mag away kami
2. Malayo sya skin.. LDR kami bka di rin mag work out
3. Tanga sya.. Wlang utak.. Pag nasulsulan malamang susunod yun sa snasabi ng mga kaibigan nya
4. Mahirap na ibalik sa dati ang relasyon nyo. Kung hindi sya determinado ibalik lahat sa dati
1. Sleepless night
2. Wala ng boyfriend so wala ng motivation msyado kasi di na ako masaya
3. Iyak tawa kasi namimiss mo sya
4. May desisyon kang pag sisihan..
5. Lagi kang malungkot..
6. 3 mo.s bago ka mka move on. Yun lang kung may bago ka ng gusto.
1. Wala ka ng hhintayin
2. Wala ka ng sakit ng ulo
3. Wala ng dahilan pra di ka makipag date sa iba
4. Busog ka nanaman kasi may kadate ka nnamang bago HAHAHAHAH XD
5. May chance na ako hanapin or hintayin or kilatisin ang taong mag mamahal skin at mamahalin ko in the near future.
So what would i choose?
Hi guys! Im having a hard time to make decisions nowadays because my mind and my heart are fighting for their rights,
Recently, we had a fight with my boyfriend.. Its just a simple lovers quarrel, I tell him that ”i really love him and dont think that i dont” and he replied ”i love you more”
but what happened is this.. Dec 9, 2013 His Italian Language School Graduation, To celebrate his graduation, He and his classmate go to some place like bar (i think) and He has a very close friend girl classmate (who’s in relationship too) but something happen, these two idiots (My Boyfriend and some girl who wont be named CHERRY FE VILLARANTE) are like flirting with each other and they kissed each other.
After dec 9, 2013 i talked to my bf and he doesnt reply to my messages (seenzoned) almost everyday and everynight im waiting for his reply and im crying over it.. then last dec 12, 2013 i guess.. My boyfriend says
”I did something terrible and you wont forgive me”
and i get want my boyfriend wanted to say… and i open his facebook account and i read their conversation .. YEAH THEYRE LIKE FLIRTING EACH OTHER.
My boyfriend hug her
My Boyfriend sniff her hair
My Boyfriend ask her if she wants to watch a movie
My Boyfriend ask her a lot (like are u hungry? like person have an intention)
Ok then„ i burst out.. i cry a lot.. then i talk to that fucking bitch.. and i tell her she’s such a bitch and she has no manners and she’s so low profile. She has no respect for herself because she has a boyfriend and she let herself to that such things.. WHAT A FUCKING BITCH
and why it turned out i was the one who has MISTAKES here? Those fucking idiots!! NO BRAINS! ALL MORONS! My boyfriend’s classmate where like (find some other girl blah blah blah) HAHAHAHA XD i laughed at loud.. I dont know where their brains gone to? hahahahah They were like IDIOTS! NO BRAINS AT ALL.. SO IMMATURE (kaya nasusulsulan bf ko dhil sa mga classmate nyang wala ding utak)
but then my boyfriend say sorry to me.. but im not contented, If he wants to win me back.. do what i say..
No communication with that girl
Accept consequences (i may not believe of what u say)
Just accept that we cannot fix this relationship
NO COMMUNICATION WITH ME
NO MUTUAL FRIENDS
NO CONNECTION WITH ME
WALA NG BALIKAN
AND MOVE ON
thats what we called ”CLOSURE”
BUT STIL IM HAVING A HARD TO TIME TO MAKE DECISIONS…
If you were in my shoes? WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
Hi! Its 2014.. So far my only priority is to achieved my dreams, I only have 5 years running to fulfill it, and if i dont do anything to fulfill this. I might missed a chance TT^TT
DREAMS/GOALS IN LIFE
1. To own a Physical Kpop Store
- I only have a Kpop online shop, but i want to have an physical shop~ i want some improvements.. so thats why i wanted to have a physical shop
2. Go to South Korea or Japan
- This i what i really need to fulfill to travel to Japan or Korea :3 but ill be happy if i can travel both countries~ ^_^
3. Meet Rain
- My Ultimate Bias, really i want to meet him even thought from a far… Really i just want to see him before i got married >.<”
4. Save lots of money..
- i want to work abroad so i can save some money and ready for my future
5. Meet my future husband
- someone can cherish me and never leave me even though he doesnt understand me..
simple goal :) maybe next year i can crossed out some of this.. hahahha XD with God’s Guidance and my perseverance nothing if impossible
Its crazy how one person can change ur outlook in life and destroy it after.
ps : Hi! If you reading this. U are the best thing happened in my life. You change me, my outlook, my thinking’s and you made me believe that FOREVER still exist. Ur the only guy who made me feel this way. Thats why i choose you. But things arent going well right now , I dont know.. It hurts to think of you. I cant help myself. I just want to cry. Because ur the only person i believed in love and i trust my heart on you. But still u broke me :(
I dont know if u wanted to have some time and space, or something.. But it really hurts me.. More than ull ever know.. But still.. u didnt even care.. I LOVE YOU.. I really love you and im willing to spend my life with you but u? YOUR NOT.. I hope ur happy now.. 7 mo.s wasnt easy.. wasnt smooth sailing.. I dont want u to give up on me.. So please if u still care, lets fix this.. PLEASE
Happy 6 mo.s to us Daddy!
I couldnt find the words to say how much i miss you :’( Really, I miss u so much :’( This is all that i can say.. I dont know if u will be back here well. Im not hoping but deep inside my heart I WISH ULL BE BACK HERE..
Sometimes i feel that our relationship is LACK of something.. i dont know what it is or what it was but i feel so vulnerable right now. :’( I cant stop crying :’( I wish Italy is just around the corner.. :’(
Yesterday when i was doing my Quotation/Paper work i received a message with my old buddy when i was in college
”Neng Punta ka sa bahay, Paturo aq mag download ng youtube video”
Since i still have paper works i replied ”After ng Paperworks ko, Bka mag overtime ako” Then she said Its ok.
When i received that message i feel so happy that finally after 2 years i had a chance to see her again :D
Ok to make the story short, Im at her house, I greeted her Mom. and i help her to retrieve her facebook and download YouTube video and sabay2 kami kumain ng dinner ng naka kamay kasalo ko kumain c Mama nya,Sya at c Hania (Her sister)
I feel at home talaga sa bahay na yun. They dont treat me us others :D
Hi just want to share this to you guys.
Every morning i listen to Love Radio 90.7 Tambalan Christsuper and Nicolehyala, der’ll super funny and they made my day a great start :D While im putting my clothes on they shared something.
”Kaninang umaga may pumuntang foreigner dito sa booth”
”oh bakit daw?”
”Ninakawan daw sya, 4 pesos nlng daw laman ng bulsa nya. Galing daw syang airport sumakay sya ng taxi dpat ang ruta nya greenhills e sa Bicutan sya galing (may shorcutan kc dun) pero bnaba sya sa San Juan de Dios School malapit sa Love Radio Booth. Tanggay tangay daw ng taxi yung maleta nya,cp nya pati laptop nya so wala daw syang mahihingian ng tulong dhil 4 pesos nlng ntra sknya”
”Buti nkarating sya dito”
”Nilakad nya! Tinulungan sya ng Radio station natin (AM)”
I just realize, Why some Filipino’s do this? Wala nmng ginagawa ang tao sknla tapos ginaganito nila. Im a Filipino too and i experience a lot, something common about this. I grew up in not so good community, a lot of uneducated citizen,Mura dito Mura dun ang mga bata. Mga tambay nag ssungal, Kung gabi nag aadik minsan naninira ng bahay (Bahay namin). Pag lasing mag wwala. kung sino2 pinag ttripan (Tatay ko). And i realize bat may gnitong mga tao? Walang mgawa sa buhay nila. Bakit hindi na lang sila mamatay? Dba? Wala nmn kwenta buhay nila. Namimewisyo pa ng iba.
I love my country, My fellow filipino’s as well, but i dont treat them right if they wont respect me. I hope that foreigner learned a lesson and i hope he wont go Philippines alone cuz for me, Its a dangerous place if you dont know anything about this country. Even I, Myself scared of how some Filipino’s treat some humans (Humans- the good one).
Its so sad some foreigners remember our country as a ”DONT VISIT PHILIPPINES IT WILL RUIN UR LIFE” instead ”ITS MORE FUN IN THE PHILIPPINES”
— Just my opinion
Im the type of girl..
I have a chubby cheeks
Has a salon treated long hair but i didnt get what i wanted ”hair type” like Koreans has (Side bangs or Full bangs)
When i was on Highschool i used to have hard athletic body, my arms are like man’s biceps (really!) and i have 4 packs abs (oh yes!)
100 push up is just like ” *ok then! ” to me.. Its so easy for me to do this back then :D
I won my first silver medal in my first competition last 2007 and im still wearing white belt and i beat blue belt girl.
I really hate my speaking/talking voice because all of the people misunderstand me when i started to talk/the way i talk. (My voice is manly and its has tone of old virgin lady didnt get married because she was so choosy) swear! i have this voice, But im thankful that God gave me beautiful voice when i started to sing :) *cheeerrrs!
I dont like girly girl stuff! But i still like it but i dont know i feel like im more comfortable in guy stuff.
Id rather buy a bag pack than a shoulder bag
I dont have pimples or acne when i was in 1st yr highschool, It started at my 18th birthday.. *that sucks! till now i have them! >.<” poor me *sobs sobs sobs
I have lots of silver accessories when i was in highschool necklace,ring,bracelet,dog tag pero nung nag college na aq nwalan na aq ng interest sa mga alahas.
Im not friendly, i have that snobby look in my eyes.
Im not tall, Im only 5’0 but im a frustrated model, I wish im 5’8 tall :’( so short skirts are perfectly fine to me.
I have straight body
and im against in PRE MARITAL SEX! im just glad that even though im 21 yrs old im still a virgin *bwahahahaha even my ex was a maniac/pervert! *Omooo.. i have a superpowers?!! Naaaaaaahh.. I just really really R E A L L Y respect myself THAT MUCH! :D i dont have a plan to be a nun or saint! hahahah :D
I have a rude attitude and im a brutal girlfriend. I always hit my ex’s/boyfriend. Yeah! I dont have that long temper! >.<” My hands are too quick. I always beat them when im mad >.<”
Im a 7 years kpop lover and 7 years cloud (Rain Fandom) I really want to marry him. I really wnat him to be my husband :D